Finally! My internet connection is back and I finally get to catch up with what’s going on in the world. Yes I’m a news junkie like that, and not so much of an internet social butterfly. For the past two weeks, our internet’s been down because we’re switching service providers or something like that. Change- clearly something everyone and everything goes through. But the interval between the previous and the new is certainly not one my most favourite thing in the world. I ‘adapt’-as we like to call it- to new things and new environments in a very different manner than many people. But I’m not going to go into that just now. Oh God I’m doing it again aren’t I? Throwing in my sentiments and feelings carelessly into every single thing. Again, that’s just me.
Anyway I’ve just taken on a new job and it requires me to have access to the internet almost throughout the day. Can you imagine the inconvenience of not having internet that has caused me?! I’ve had to travel to the other side of town to the office every single day by train (because I cannot drive and don’t own a car) for internet access. And when I reach the station someone has to pick me up to take me to the office. Being in that situation has indeed cost me a lot of money (I got scammed for 20 bucks for a 9-dollar trip by a creepy cabbie) and it’s forced me to burden other people. I do feel bad but really, why does the Malaysian transport system have to be so rubbish. (At times like this I label myself as a very patriotic Singaporean. A nationalist almost. haha yuck).
Well I’m not here to complain. I’ve got a wonderful job alhamdulillah and I’m very happy that today our internet’s been restored which means that I now can work from home. For now I am sort of volunteering because a) apparently that is how everyone started off before being officially employed b) I’m actually on break. I’ll have to be in Uni starting February inshaAllah. So I don’t know if I can maintain a permanent job. But the thing is, I don’t do office work. I work online, which suits me just fine.
For the past few days, being without the internet has taught me a lot of things. I realised I rely on it way too much. I don’t buy newspapers anymore (don’t ‘tsk’ or hiss at me please). I rely on it for news, twitter, people’s blogs and other reading materials. Yes, I know, ‘I pledge to read the printed word’ but hey it is the digital era is it not? I do hold on to books though. Books over e-books, definitely. My stress level has went through the roof too, when I had to work with no internet. I was so anxious as to what my seniors would think- I mean, I’m new and I’m not doing any work except during working hours i.e. when I’m at the office. I sense raised eyebrows and narrowed eyes and a lot of confusion. Yes this job puts me in a worldwide team where it’s online-based. So there is no such term as ‘working hours’ in this context. It is best that I be online all the time to read emails and updates due to the different time zones. And I couldn’t do that for the first week of work. :(
By the way, I have no clue whatsoever as to whether one needs to quit having this sort of a personal blog under their real name when one takes up a job at a respectable MNC. You know sometimes employees tend to misrepresent their employers and that is why they have a disclaimer visible to every one of their readers/viewers that clarify that their writings/postings/tweets etc (which all include their thoughts and opinions) are not a reflection of their company, but are solely theirs. And I don’t want to misrepresent the organisation that I’m working for. So.. I don’t actually know what to do. I’ve always found it interesting to read blogs/tweets by certain people working for a certain organisation- and now I find myself in that situation. How more awkward can this get. I hope no one judges me (badly) as a reflection of my employers. (Oh but they dooo! I do -or did-that to people who belong to some organisations. It’s not really fair, is it?- to divorce themselves entirely from the company they work for? I guess it depends on what matter exactly the employee is talking about.) But see the thing is, no one really knows I work there. Oh this is definitely going to stress me out. I’m back in the cycle of controlling what goes out through my blog (refer to first post). It doesn’t have to be a bad thing. But you know.
Ramadan has been going really well this year, alhamdulillah. So I don’t relate to those people who say they don’t feel Ramadan this time around. What are they talking about? I feel great about the things I’ve learned and been exposed to this time around. Minus my awkward moments with people thus far, there’s actually been so many blessings from Almighty Allah.
Till next time.